2. believe half of what you see and none of what you hear.

 there's this big hubbub about, yaknow, angels and demons not having free will. see the thing is people love running around saying things.. without even knowing what they mean. 

you can choose to find this meaningless.. but that therein means you have free will. this world is out of balance. we have invested all of our stones into what is physical.

therefore we believe freedom to mean our ability to go and do what we please, yet we are not truly free to think what we want. 

"i think therefore i am." 

you ever wonder if you can truly steal someones soul? or own it? who makes the rules on that kind of thing?

it turns out we do. you do. i do. 

from the beginning we're told, at least in the overarching mainstream culture of the west, to lose our imaginations, and get into the "real world." 

they have convinced a lot of people that it is immoral, and sinful to challenge the authority of whatever obscure entity or whatever has made these rules and says these things. this started a long time ago. 

self deception is a huge part of the human condition. it's the placebo effect. it is also the basis of true reality. whatever you perceive is reality. that means your dreams, your internal monologue, and things that you've seen that you can't prove to anyone else and no one else saw. this culture is set up to be the opposite of that. 

only the strongest, or what is called stubborn minds will make it through decades of this and stand true to their own colors, being defiantly oppositional to the status quo throughout their whole life. as long as there is something to challenge, there are more questions to ask, more answers to question. this is the nature of heyoka. it is chaos. 

in a lot of cultures even the creation story says in the beginning there was only chaos, and chaos is seen as a "bad thing". this , however, maintains the fallacy of imbalance.

there is good in the bad and bad in the good. therefore the duality is not chaos and order, the duality is chaos and chaos and order and order. 

chaos like a tornado? or like a forest fire?

order like structure, safety, and logistical networks, law, or order as in silence? oppression? this goes back to "doublespeak" and language. 

i am tabula rasa incarnate. a blank slate. after much struggle and much pain. i rejected what they tried to feed me but it was the only thing i had to go on.

no one ever taught me the other things. i had to challenge everything and find my own answers. i am the sacred clown, i am heyoka, i am the one that rides his horse backwards.

i can sum it up in one line.

people say "i don't know how to move forward"

well the first person that went to the moon didnt know how to do that either, but they found a way.

according to my essence, the way i perceive things, this is the truest form of balance. does a caterpillar know that it's going to be a butterfly? is a flower nervous about blooming? 

the most efficent way for me to move through all of this and become what i am now was to have something to fight against. 

it turns out i was fighting against myself. all of us have been doing that in our way. according to our astrological signs. this is the part where we move over the summit of the mountain we've been climbing, to the sacred valley of peace below it. 

i don't need to tell you everything that i know.

my biggest problem has been practicing what i preach. now is the time to bring the sacred medicine back to the earths people. 

i have always said i didnt want to be here to give people their answers, just the tools to find their own, and now i'm going to start practicing what i preach. 

i say all of this to tell you that while there are many sources to follow up on what i will say here, i have learned this from scratch. experience.

this is what my elders and my ancestors culture, or the remnants that i was able to find in the past, taught me. or at least reminded me. this is, after all, just my true nature. its not about believing. i just want to open doors for all of you, and then the greatest actor alive will exit stage right.

all in all this page signals that this blog is going to become more like a reference book or a guide to true history, ancient cultures and sacred / plant medicine. i will be doing individual blogs about all of my favorite stories and those that are most meaningful. 

here i humbly ask you to remove all bias and also to remove what little doubt may still be lingering about your presence here and it's meaning. if you're synchronistically meant to be here, that doesnt mean youre meant to be a shaman, or like you have some schedule or itenirary or docket or manifesto to follow or some shit...

SHAMANISM IS ART. JUST LIKE MUSIC. THIS IS EXPRESSION. THIS IS ALL ABOUT EXPRESSION.