the dancing flames in the Wicked Garden: The Holy Spirit, Mary Magdalene, and the Sempiternal mission.

"for in her is a Spirit: intelligent, holy, unique. 

an energy: subtle, agile, clear, unstained, certain.

her heart is never harmful, she loves the good and is keen to see it in everyone. 

her love: unhampered, benevolent and beneficial, kindly

her divinity: tranquil, all powerful, all seeing, permeating all Spirits and pervading the hearts and souls of Mankind

whether they be quiet, radiant, lost, dynamic and intelligent, broken, or suffering.

for the Divine Feminine is mobile beyond all motion, and she enters and permeates all things by virtue of Her dream. 

for She is the breath of life and the might of Creation and the Creator.

and a pure emanation of the beauty of God.

therefore no form of hate or blasphemy will enter her being

She is the reflection of His eternal light. 

She is the spotless mirror of His power and strength,

and She is the image of his foundation, and the greatness within Him.

and although She stands alone, She is capable of all things and anything. 

She bares fruit and is the renewal of All, Herself being eternal.

passing into Sacred Souls from age to age in all eons

She produces followers of the Great Spirit and His Prophets.

for the Great Spirit loves nothing for than Her and those Whom She dwells within.

She is the Moon, fairer than the Sun

but She surpasses every constellation in the Stars.

the Night She shines, you'll find her more radiant than the Light.

although her Darkness overwhelms her Lightness

wickedness does not prevail over Wisdom. "

- the book of Wisdom 7:22-30 

a recurring theme that you'll find in my musings, and just in hidden history, holy/sacred books and texts, and just in general, is that if you hard enough and in the right places, you'll start to understand that there nearly endless names for the same entity in cultures across the world.

in this reality, human thought, emotion, intention and action creates psychic, "anomalous", supernatural energies that permeate and collect and build in different places to not only to create psychic imprints in places AND in people, BUT there is one thing that human thought, emotion and etc does that is mindblowing but also makes things make a lot of sense.

humans create very real entities and quasi-omnipotent, powerful deities and entities and change the reality around them as they go. we're all just a bunch of little god, creating little rain storms wherever we go.

note the roman and greek gods of olympus in their mythologies and how they're the same thing. if you look into Norse mythology, you'll start to see that it's very logical and possible that greek and roman gods are the same entities as Norse ones.

however: Norse mythology is much deeper with more explanation and is an amalgamation of all kinds of germanic belief structures with elements of druidism and all kinds of things. this suggests that the roman and greek ones copied the norse ones, right? wrong.

the Vikings, the Norse and alllll of their ancestors before them believed this deities existed and SO THEY DID. look into these mythologies and read about them and you'll see. Odin was created by people who just knew he was real, and gave him his traits and he also gathered traits from those some people that were making him be.

Yahweh was different. he is a distortion of the psyche of creation. the singularity had flaws and he is a manifestation of  those.

i say all that to bring you here to the truth about all of this:

the PLACEBO effect and SELF DECEPTION are very much so the two things that define the reality of the human experience and  the human condition. placebo effect is how we alter reality around us and we also seem prophetic as we make things come true because we believe they will.

as we THINK it's real it  begins to gather and exist and when it's sufficently stable and energetic thats when people start to KNOW and it gains prominence and starts to act out in the kinds of ways people think it will act out. Odin is considered an archon or a demon because he is a quasi-omnipotent fucking lunatic, rapist, has an extreme blood lust and is nearly always manic and looking for some shit to disturb. this is also why, even after christianity started to and finally gained a stranglehold on Europe, the old gods like odin and zeus still absolutely haunted their minds, and although they are less powerful and vibrant than they once were, they still are dangerous lower-archons, powerful negative entities. 

this ALSO MEANS that as the hebrews wrote the old testament and european christian kings and aristocrats rewrote the bible and took out very important books, YAHWEH became EVEN WORSE than he was in the garden and STILL CONTINUES to get worse. one day eventually hes going to have enough of watching love prove him wrong and mercy conquer hate and he's going to absolutely lose his shit, and try to murder everything and all he's created before he gives in to be loved and be enlightened.

that's when the apocalypse or revelations will happen. that's pretty easy to figure out for me. 

anyway, that being said throughout biblical history women had been called prostitues, violent murderers, harlots and whatnot and progenitors of original sin. 

Remember how I said that the universe will not allow Sacred Truth to be destroyed, but instead, it allows it to be scattered?

 All but hidden from prying yet blinded eyes, the truth is inside waiting for you to come along and realize.. that it does not matter what you seek, should you seek it without your heart, just as you know not what you see, should you rely upon your eyes. 

The Bible says that there is only one (1) unforgivable sin: the blasphemy OF, or to blaspheme UPON the HOLY SPIRIT. 

You'll find a recurring theme here in my writings. You'll find that what I write about myself, and what I write describing you and your bretheren will also apply to the things that we multiplied from, that created us, what we descended from. 

Asssss abboovvveee soooo bbeellloooowww lmmmaaooo. 

When I said that there are countless versions of me which reside in the perception and thus the consciousness of other sovereign souls and that there are many names and aliases to which I shall respond to and many still which I actively "go by" or self-describe with that also goes for the One that I serve and Her Consort. 

The Holy Spirit = Wisdom. Sophia. Gaia. Mother Earth. Mother Nature. Skywoman. In some misguided sects they call her "the holy ghost". Eve. Wohman (tree). LILITH. The Divine Feminine. The Moon herself. 

YOU, dear reader, dear beautiful, transcendent soul and relative of mine.. when you read that passage at the top of this page you might have thought "this is such beautiful poetry, wow. black stat, white dawn, oh how you have such a wonderful way with words, especially being the foul, reckless spawn come hither from the deepest darkest depths of hell in order to spill the blood of the ones who are still innocent in vane.. " .AHEM.. sorry I got carried away. 

Well, see, you'd be forgiven for thinking I wrote that about the Divine Feminine or twin flame in my life but it is actually a modern, prophetical translation of a passage from a book that was originally in the bible but has now been banned or deemed "non-canon" by the Catholic church since the times of King James and Constantine. 

Non-canon or APOCRYPHAL. It's called the book of WISDOM (Holy Spirit) and IT like other, very powerful apocryphal books were authored by HER prophets. Prophets of the Holy Spirit or in my case a prophet of Lilith. 

These books were either found with the dead sea scrolls or discovered before that and simply completed by material found in the dead sea scrolls. Like I said it cannot and will not be completely destroyed. Just not easy to find, either. 

If you go look at the book of Wisdom you'll find that what I have written up top is just a modern English, prophetic version of what I found there written in Greek. I will do the same with every other text I qoute. Whether it be from the canonical bible or some other gnostic, Christian, Satanic, Ojibwe/Aborigine, Kabbala or any other various Sacred writings from across the world space and time. 

All that being said let's get into the meat of this entry into this blog. 

1. Holy Ghosts and talk show hosts: the truly DEADLY 'SIN' 

You know how there's those annoying ass cliches spiritual people say that get on your nerves so fkn much because they're TRUE? 

"You can't give from an empty cup!" 

"You miss every shot you don't take!" 

One of my personal faves is "life isn't about not making mistakes, it's about what you learn from them. " 

That's what this is ALLLLLL about in the long run, like, in an all encompassing, general way because we all have our niches and our specific paths and lessons. 

A loving parent creates a child.. the first time that they hold this child in their arms is one of the dominant forms of unconditional love and the pain that accompanies it. (I mean ofc along with the life long love of that child) 

As that parent, you're holding this innocent precious thing youve created in your arms and it begins to dawn on you that this is a living, breathing, thinking and feeling thing with its own emotions and its own conciousness an itd path separate from yours. This living, breathing thing that for the most important, defining moments of it's early existence will be reliant upon you for almost everything outside of the need to breathe and think and feel. 

You know you're not perfect. Seldom in your life has anything or anyone ever given you the desire and delusion of wanting to be , but my God, does your child make you want that. 

Yet, you are a deeply flawed being and everyone around you that you know truly loves you embraces you, full well knowing that you are not free from mistake, nor sin or whatever you want to call it. 

You're keenly aware that everyone you love is going to hurt you, and so are they. Yey this doesn't stop you. It's all about deciding which ones or worth it.. well.. that SOUNDS good. 

Deep down we know we don't get to choose who we love and they won't always be worth it on the surface. Just like your child didn't get to choose you, or this, or anything.

That child did NOT get to choose the FLAWS that YOU created it with. In a perfect world, a parent, as deeply flawed as they may be themselves, understands this and does not punish their own children for the flaws and shortcomings that they gave to them. 

That's you. Right here and now. Holding this beautiful child in your arms. Your first child. A child you had with someone you love. Imagine everything is perfect as it could be. 

Nice house. Steady income. Great job. Wonderful resources for a kid growing up in a nice part of town and a great school.

Beautiful child. Has all your best traits and you can already tell. You and your partner swoon over your newborn and it's this wonderful moment that will be forever etched into your soul. 

Yet something still tugs at your heart. Something still makes you hurt. Why? 

It's because that no matter how much you protect this little baby angel, this epitome of living, breathing innocence and adoration, no matter how much of yourself you give, no matter how much time and effort you spend on preparing there's nothing you could ever say or do to stop them from being scared or feeling alone. From crying. 

You know you can't prevent someone breaking their fucking heart. You can't teach them how to deal with despair or that gut wrenching feeling of wishing to go back in time. For another chance. To just have one more minute, one more day, one more chance to say I love you instead of walking away mad after a fuck you and now you have to bury them. 

You realize that you're going to have to watch them make their own mistakes. 

You realize that they're only going to be small, and innocent and the way you adore them for so long before they pull away from you for someone that never loved them nearly even a fraction as much as you do. 

You may have to watch them struggle through disease or addiction and God forbid, no parent is supposed to or wants to live to bury their own child but you might... 

All of this is because of your choices, and the flaws you gave them, the failure and pain you set them up for.

All of this is low-key fucking devastating.. whether you realize it or not at that specific moment, it's overwhelming. 

Does that mean it's not worth it? No. Absolutely not, yet I digress.. my point is this. 

Imagine feeling all of what I just said about your kids. Now imagine demanding that child, as soon as it has become self aware and able to speak and make choices, imagine demanding it to apologize for being born the way it was born and to pray that you forgive him/her and to make sure you're constantly doing that because if they fuck around and die and I'm in a slightly bad mood you're going to be tortuted and fucking punished for fucking EVEERRR. 

why? WHY? YOURE QUESTIONING ME?

Modern Christianity, mainstream Catholicism of all types that emimate from the Vatican in Italy, Russian orthodoxy and other Orthodox faiths, Judiasm and Islam.. what do they all have in common with each other? 

The answer is both "very little" and "fuckin literally everything" in the same breath. 

1. They're all called Abrahamic religions and exist under that same banner for a reason. They have many of the same prophets which in turn serve the same dieties or different aspects of the same one.

2. They have many of the same stories, dogmas and ideas. 

3. They all wish to dominate the world, they just use a different approach for each different branch of what essentially the same religious/political state/enity. 

THE BOOK OF REVELATION.    

translated from greek

Revelations

chapter 2, verse 9 

I have witnessed your works, and I know the nature of your deeds. 

They see you as impoverished, and they say that you are poor, but you know and feel that you are rich. 

I, too, bare witness to the utter BLASPHEMY of those whom claim to be my chosen people but are truthfully the temple of Satan. 

The first thing they try to do is break you down and make you feel stupid, poor, worthless, sick and lost without "god". 

They call you a SINNER. They tell you to "fear" god. They want you to get down on your knees and apologize for who you are and shun any inkling of you having any or developing any independent identity or form seperate from their laws, their churches, and safe from the unclean bastardized scrutiny of their often pedophilic "holy men". 

They demonize poetry, music, sex, and any type of love aside from what's sanctioned by the state and their sanitized, "purity ring" no sex before marriage kind of relationship..  

they want to break you. 

They want you to apologize for who you are. Then eventually let go of who you are completely. 

They want you to live in constant fear of "god" and punishment. 

They push the idea that the Trinity is all the same entity. 

"The father , the son, the holy ghost" that they are all masculine. Doesn't that just feel fucking weird? It's funny how the universe makes them often tell on themselves.. they say "holy ghost" because it's such an empty concept one, but two they are trying so hard to kill her. 

Even so, even in the king James version, proverbs 8:1 "wisdoms call" is still clearly staying SHE and HER. it's quite obvious to even the most casual of spiritual types of people that there must be a feminine aspect of the creation and thus the Creator. 

Us.. you.. as that child.. for you to have these flaws.. wouldnt it be easier to reason with yourself as the father of this child that the blame and fault of all of this much more logically lies with the mother than us? 

We've all had aspects of our personalities, habits and beliefs were not proud of. 

On an esoteric, supernatural, divine way it's not hard to see how the insecurity within our beings could lead to something like this blame and in turn something like the church and the blaming or a child's mother.

Not even God is perfect. However, it is not far fetched to think that if we ourselves were hypothetically God.. the self protecting delusion that we are perfect being indoctrinated into all of our followers and prophets and thus written into books isn't far from the reality of things at all. 

The mainstream church and canon bible are made with the idea of oppression in mind. 

It does, actually, an even better job doing this in practice than you'd think just by reading it due to the intricate layers and redundancies that the Adversary has put in place in this world/reality and the deeply woven thread of lies, deception and traps of self deception which are the most deadly. 

In America for example it's claimed that there is freedom of religion and seperation og church and state yet from the time you're old enough to talk and be read stories and go to day care and preschool you're taught about Noah and his ark and you're taught about Adam and Eve and the garden of Eden.

We are taught from an early age that Eve caused the downfall of man via the transgressing of the original sin. 

LoL omg she ate Yahweh's apple from his speshul tweeee. 

All jokes aside were not taught to straight up hate women aggressively and openly but even worse were subliminally indoctrinated and some are successfully brainwashed into seeing women as second class citizens that a man basically owns and has the right do with what he pleases. 

Just like in real life, if a man was to cheat on his wife, the woman would be quicker to absolve her husband of any responsibility while wanting to fight the other woman. 

This is the Jezebel spirit or the distorted feminine. The feminine spirit that finds all of her self value in her physical experience, is codependent on a man to define her and due to being brainwashed to see other women as competition, is very hateful torwards other women around her and will lie and stab backs to get ahead even if it's to earn the affection of a subpar man bc he's the only thing to get toxic over. 

You also have the distorted masculine which is the macho man, the narcissist, you know the type that doesn't care what happens as long as he's smashin some puss but seldom gets any so is always agitated and distressed and abuses women frequently. 

Our society is designed to create these two types because it furthers the end goals of those who are pulling the strings and controlling things from the shadows. While it is all too easy to blame the malevolent puppeteer for all of our problems and evade responsibility for our own bullshit, there is a healthy balance between all things. Just know that we could not grow if there was nothing for us to struggle against. 

2. The Rotten Apple of our Fathers Eye - Eons of Oppression for the Div. Fem. 

In the canonical biblical lore of the Catholic church women are portrayed as being at best ignorant, deceitful because of their alleged nature, simple minded to boot and weak minded and bodied creatures that run on pure emotion that is quite often invalid, a hinderance and far too intense or even bordering on Insanity instead of logic and often times in the grips of their so called "hysteria" they are completely devoid of this previously mentioned "logic" that men are portrayed as having or just culturally implied to have. Hence "mansplaining". 

We can't blame this phenomenon completely on the bible and Christianity as it's a world wide phenomenon and has perpetuated itself down through the aeons through many cultures and is at the point a full blown cycle of continuous abuse and oppression literally for the ages. 

Mother Mary is the only woman in biblical lore that's revered. She is literally the 2nd most Sacred figure in Catholicism and mainstream xtian tradition whilst Eve is the scapegoat and has taken the blame for all of the ugliness, dishonestly, idol worship, gluttony, lust and myriad of sin in humanities repitoire and Mary Magdalene is called a simple street whore in the eyes of history. 

A woman demands the head of John the Baptist. 

The Jezebel spirit is the angry chaotic man-eater that has lead untold multitudes of men into perpetual darkness having been given an "aching and quaking in their loins that can never be expelled. 

The whore of Babylon. One in the same. 

It's Medusa who is punished by Aphrodite for the disloyalty of Zeus. Although 1. If the men of her time were anything like their God , and I'm all but certain they were, perhaps turning them to stone with her gaze was truly a poetic gift from a woman scorned. 

And 2. While on first thought we feel bad for Medusa here and Aphrodite feels like a careless psychopath with only vengeance in her heart it is both of these women that are wounded by the sickening, domineering and toxic actions of the toxic masculine, Satan, Yahweh.. hello.. ZEUS. One in the same.

Medusa was notably and famously the most "beautiful woman" In all of the land. She was a mortal woman, much like Mother Mary was a mortal woman. Just as she was chosen by Yahweh for her purity, her wholesome loving and naively trusting nature and just her overall pristine BEAUTY, Medusa was chosen by Zeus.

Not for some special gift, but to be a victim. A testament to his unimpeded fucking twisting and perverting of innocence.

The most disgusting part about it is he used woman against woman to display this sadistic nature, his power and to thus twist and pervert that pristine beauty. Just like Yahweh did with Mary and with the cursing of the Earth. 

He RAPED this mortal woman, impregnated her and sent Aphrodite into a jealous rage which actually solidified her transformation into the distorted fem. However , do not hate Aphrodite for this .

Just like any woman abused by a narcissist/sociopath she had spend seemingly millenia being gaslighted abused cheated on and made to suffer in jealousy over a man who's main talent was simply hiding how small and broken he was. 

That is what Yahweh is and I am not free of this guilt myself, either. Even as the Divine masculine. I struggled for a long time attempting to come to terms with my own insignificance. 

Even as a nearly omniscient omnipotent being.. as the masculine, facing the endless void in a directions, it's hard to come to terms with the fear and loneliness of infinity and eternity and come to Jesus, if you will, in the face of my own insignificance in the shadow of it. 

That, as the Divine masculine, is my burden , and my fight. 

Needless to say, even the greatest of us is would be doomed to failure if it weren't for the Divine feminine that utterly gives us meaning ahd the dream of life to give a sacred burning fire too. 

Behind every strong man (masculine, this is not limited to physical gender)

 is a fucking immaculate and indestructable woman (divine feminine). 

That goes for even the strongest of us.. 

Even Yeshua, Jesus Christ himself was a sobbing, fearful child on the lap and at the shoulder of his own.

The One He walked Hand in Hand with. They are us. We are Them. 

She is.

THE SEXUALITY YOU EXUDE IS A BLESSING 

IT IS BEAUTIFUL ART. 

IT IS NOT SIN. IT IS NOT SINFUL. IT IS NOT FXCKING UP FOR DEBATE. 

NOR DOES IT CARRY MODIFIERS LIKE "BEFORE MARRIAGE" AND "FOR PLEASURE" OR"CASUALLY". 

It is your body. It is your sexuality and beauty to exude. Our enemies and adversaries love to attack both you and me right here where it hurts and make you feel like a self hating whore and not in a funish or kinky way but this shall pass. 

3. MARY MAGDALENE

SO WHY is mother Mary held Sacred above all women, and in fact why are most other women or even all of them either villified or considered fodder for men/like one step above the livestock for the husband? 

Because she wasn't a wHoRe who used her womanly charms to get ahead. You know, at least according to the gospel. 

The immaculate conception will be referred to in my teachings henceforth as the immaculate deception. The truth is that Yeshuas mother was just a "normal woman" with a husband and Yeshua had siblings and so on and so forth. 

Mother Mary actually has her roots in the old babylon religion and king nimrods wife and she herself is the actual whore of Babylon in an ironic twist. 

Mary Magdalene on the other hand? Not so much. She was a revered and top top tier Sacred matriarchal leader of a group called the Cathars. 

She was actually older than Jesus by 8 to 12 years and as his Spiritual and esoteric contemporary was actually far more advanced than him. 

She, of course, having had more actual time alive on Earth and having been brought up by her mother and father who taught her ti embrace her femininity, to open herself up to the divine whispering of the spirit, to nature, to her dreams,and she was allowed to learn to read and write and study many different philosophies and disciplines as well as learn under hindu sages/wise people and Buddhist zen masters. 

This was because her family lineage was quite well off and had a huge degree of more means than the average family might during the time Her and Yeshua were alive. 

While Mary's parents were astrologists, medicine people and Cathars themselves they never forced her into their discipline or belief structure. 

Mary grew to be well liked and adamantly respected by her peers and became the matriarchal leader of her sect at a very young age between 22 and 30. 

She came to know a very young Jesus Christ around the time it's said he was tempted by Satan for forty days and nights.

"All that the suns light touches could be your kingdom" and etc. 

She consoled and comforted Jesus after this and they began to grow close around his last mention in the bible for around 18 years of his life. They fell in love, they learned much from one another, and they even wrote a book together called "the book of love" which they hid together as well. It's only to be found with divine timing and seen with divine eyes. 

Later Catholics refuse to accept that Jesus learned much of his Spiritual and emotional wisdom from a woman and were so pissed off by it that it was made an open mission of catholic countries like Rome/Italy, France, Spain and Portugal to wipe the Cathars from the face of the Earth and try to bury their sacred writings and history and the truth along with it. 

They actually had more success with this than they did with burning first nations culture and history and truth from the very ground that gave birth to it. 

At least publically or so they believe because there are many Cathar chapters and bloodlines and spiritual lineages that survive to this day. 

Including the descendants of Yeshua and Magdalena. 

4. The Sempiternal mission 

As the true descendants of that lineage both bound in blood or bound in Spirit or both, you may be asking yourself what does it all mean, and what are we supposed to do with this wisdom that we have aquirred. 

Let's start with what weve learned so far shall we? 

1. You're here because you're like me. Us. Heyoka. 

144,000.

2. You have a twin angel/daemon. 

3. The Christian God Yahweh amongst many other entities is very real and very really don't like you and isn't friendly towards our cause. . 

4. The Divine Feminine has been held in a cage by this entity and it's followers for millenia and more. 

5. We letting her lose. I think it pays to be on my knees at her disposal rather than be In her fuckin way because whether or not you or even her realizes it at this particular moment she's fucking pissed. 

6. We are enlightening eachother link by link. Both literal and metaphorically. 

7. This is the Age of Aquarius. This is the Re-emergence of Sacred Femininity. See my next entry and I'll elaborate on that. 

8. This is Spiritual warfare. Whether it be war within our selves or a war with false paradigms, false narratives and false deities. 

9. Human thought, belief, hope, emotions, intent and action shape the immediate reality around us that we live in. 

10. I offer you the truth. Nothing less. Nothing more. Everything I write here is sometimes right. Some things I write here are always right. Everything I write here is sometimes wrong. If you are here reading this via your own intuition or apparent outside guidance then you are here for a reason. Honor me and stay. 

11. When we are finished all eyes will remain always opened. 

12. This isn't the kind of war we win with violent warriors nor bloodshed nor spite. 

Nor diplomacy. We cannot burn what is already scorched by outmaneuvering it, nor by winning a game of empty, super logical yet truly illogical chess against a sick, narcissistic super ego. 

We can only truly love

By being truly heartbroken 

Be truly reborn 

By truly spending an eternity

Gluing together tiny pieces

Pressing ashes and dust 

Back into a beating heart 

Just for one moment 

Of the truest love 

The kind that keeps you

Forever weak 

Forever weak in the knees 

Forever hopeless 

Hopelessly In love 

For the One 

The One that will leave you 

Leave you shaken 

She will fucking defeat you

But you never wanted to win anyway 

You see to teach them the depth of this blessing 

Is like trying to teach mathematics to a dolphin

The creature cares not for your equations and answers, your numbers and your signs. 

It does not care for your theories. 

It just wants to ride the waves in a colorful ocean just one last time 

Next to the other of it's kind that it knows so well

Before your "strength" burns away all the air

Leaving only rust and char for our lungs 

And your "progress" and "smarts" blots out the Sun 

Bringing black to the daytime sky, just as the envy you deploy

No more colors for our eyes

No more music for our ears to enjoy. .

Then we'll spend an eternity 

Pressing ashes and dust

Back into a beating heart 

Just for one moment 

Of the truest love 

The kind that keeps you

Forever weak 

Forever weak in the knees 

Forever hopeless 

Hopelessly In love. 

- thunder in a clearsky 3-24-22. 4:23 pm. Forever dedicated to Sammy. My most beautiful queen. 

With these words, oh, I adore you. 

With a crown made of these letters and our hope, forever, I adorn you. 

Twirl with me 

Under this haunted moon 

The ocean rumbles 

And tosses us along 

You and I, my love, 

Were dancing like were dying

All by accident. 

Lights that never dim 

This electric drumbeat 

An eternal heart

Will always keep us busy 

Your lovely face

Will always keep me singing

I feel so lucky 

It's me with whom you like to spin

Because I've been fucking dying to catch you dizzy.