White Star, Black Dawn: the Musings of a fallen angel.

1/17/23 : DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT A WRITING THAT IS MEANT TO INFLUENCE ANYONE TO DO HALLUCINOGENS, THIS IS NOT A WRITING ALL ABOUT DMT AND PSYCHEDLICS. DMT IS BEING USED HERE AS THE FOCAL POINT OF REFERENCE AS A VISUAL AND COGNITIVE AID TO PROMOTE UNDERSTANDING IN ALL OF YOU NO MATTER HOW WELL VERSED YOU ARE IN BIOCHEM/BIOLOGY/CHEMISTRY AND WHATEVER ELSE.  DO NOT FUCKING JUDGE MY GODDAMN BOOKS BY THEIR COVERS I AINT THE PENGUIN RANDOM HOUSE PUBLISHING COMPANY AND THIS AINT EROWID, THIS AINT REDDIT, THIS AINT WIKIPEDIA, AND THIS CERTAINLY IS NOT A GUIDE TO USING DRUGS.  I TRIED TO POST THIS IN A GROUP THAT WAS CALLED "SPIRITUALITY MYSTICISM AND ENLIGHTMENT BEYOND THE TEACHINGS" THAT I WAS GIVEN MODERATOR STATUS IN. I HAVE NEVER SEEN A GROUP ADMIN DENY A POST SO QUICKLY AND I IMMEDIATELY LEFT THAT GROUP.  CLOSE YOUR EYES TO SEE YOU FUCKERS. <3  FROM HERE THIS WAS PUBLISHED ON 1/ 16/23:  prologue: before i get into this one, i...

 Region:  MEXICO, CENTRAL AMERICA, Contemporarily world wide, had a presence all over europe and asia before western european "first contact" and there are 50 different strains in this genus that are very similar and are present across the world.  Species:  Calendula officinalis, Catha officinalis,  Tagetes erecta  Wild "Mexican Marigold" (ABOVE) Tagetes Erecta Aka: Holigold, Solis Sophia, Solis Solidad   THE EYE OF CHRIST THE SOUL OF SOPHIA  or as the "Aztec" people knew it -  cempazúchitl. the flower of the dead.   the word calendula, note its similiarity to the english word calendar, means "throughout the months." this, again has a double meaning. this plant is woven into the mythology of many a nation: marigold is full of the magic of abundance, from the moment when it flowers in early spring, throughout the summer up to late autumn, remaining yellow and cheerful all this time. It grows in many types of soil, in different climat...

Region: Northern Africa, the Near East Species:   Nymphaea nouchali Type: non-root, flower.  The Blue Lotus useful as: sacramental herb, medicine, recreation. medicinal: anti-obesity, has blood sugar balancing effects, anti-anxiety, nerve problems, seizures, tremors, pain associated with things like MS and parkinsons as well as the shakes. hypertension/blood pressure reduction properties are present.  addiction medicine shows promise.. mostly for alcoholics and benzo users but it helps to alleviate negative symptoms of all of them.  daytime, energy boost dose is 1 to 3-4 grams if you want a sedative hypnotic effect or to help with manic depression or insomnia you want more than 5 grams. recommend preparing it for this use in conjuction with valerian root or chamomille.  FOR MEDITATION: ingest this as a sacrament or smoke the dried flower for heightened or to work on intuition.  this flower is related to the Sixth chakra and the third eye. it is all abo...

  there's this big hubbub about, yaknow, angels and demons not having free will. see the thing is people love running around saying things.. without even knowing what they mean.  you can choose to find this meaningless.. but that therein means you have free will. this world is out of balance. we have invested all of our stones into what is physical. therefore we believe freedom to mean our ability to go and do what we please, yet we are not truly free to think what we want.  "i think therefore i am."  you ever wonder if you can truly steal someones soul? or own it? who makes the rules on that kind of thing? it turns out we do. you do. i do.  from the beginning we're told, at least in the overarching mainstream culture of the west, to lose our imaginations, and get into the "real world."  they have convinced a lot of people that it is immoral, and sinful to challenge the authority of whatever obscure entity or whatever has made these rules and says these thi...

HOTE.  who goes dere? i mean rabble rabble who dareth disturb my slumber *says scary latin things*. it has been a year now since a trance was had and an esoteric blog was written. things have transpired. somethings were yeah, some things were nah, some things were stuff and other things were just things. yeah. i know due to the nature of the game here that everyone is doing exactly as well as they need to be doing and everything is happening exactly as it should. as of right now we are 2 days out from the first day of the Divine Feminine in the active age of aquarius. friday the 13th. that's right did you know that friday the 13th was also stolen from women and said to be foul and unlucky be the wretched patriarch!? okay okay let's calm it down and let's take inventory of what has happened here on our wild little blue rock as of late. for many years it pained me to feel like no one was listening, and like i was fighting a war against a super ego and nameless billions follow...